Today I have my first job interview in years and I’m starting to get nervous. One thing I have never been much good at is getting myself across to other people.
I have lost track of the jobs and contracts I have successfully applied for in others names. When it comes to me I tend to take a back seat.
I’m the one people come to with problems that need fixing. The oracle in the office. The person who remembers everything and everyone.
I think that’s why I’m nervous. I won’t know anything or anyone about this new challenge. I get to start again. Meet new people, face new challenges, become a new person.
What I really need is someone positive to reassure me that everything is going to be ok and that I can do this. A nice comforting hug to build me up ready to sell my abilities, which looking at my CV are impressive.
Part of me just wants to pick the phone up and call someone but that would be wrong. It’s time I learned to rely on myself and stop needing others to be there for me.
It’s like a corner in the 88th minute to take your team to extra time and salvage your chance of winning the cup. One moment of focus, fingers crossed, deep breath and hope you come out the other side victorious.