There’s another version of this post, one I wrote and rewrote but in the end I decided to keep it to myself.
I seem to have been doing that a lot lately, writing to myself to process the changes in my life.
2014 taught me a lot about who I am. It wasn’t a pleasant journey, I hit rock bottom and had to work my way back up.
I’m not the person I was at the beginning of the year and the things I thought I wanted for my life had to all be let go.
It takes a lot of getting used to, not making plans for the future, it goes against who I am or should I say was. But it was the right thing to do.
I just need to learn how to stop my mind from wandering and dreaming about the future and making plans that never materialise.
There is so much less disappointment and failure when you don’t make future wishes.
I certainly didn’t think I would be in the place I am now, seeing how badly the year started.
I still have some scars that haven’t healed, and some things that were said that haven’t completely been forgotten, but I really don’t want them to affect what happens in my future. They did enough damage already.
So here’s to 2015, right now you are full of possibility, you could be the best year ever if I learn to let go of the past, and live in the present and not in the future.
If the movie Back to the Future is anything to go by the future never turns out quite the way we think it will.
I wish you all love, health and happiness for 2015 and hope to have some interesting posts and stories for you to read next year.
Thanks for sticking around, I appreciate all your kind words.